Born right the first time.

Note to self

Note to self,

Self ....today I was talking to my friend Jennifer, she is also a mom and an
Atheist. I told her that my husband Mike and myself had been Jehovah's Witness ministers...she asked if we were still together ....Heh heh.

Yes , I am still with the same man...LOL! We have to be the strangest couple ever. Mike was leading a double life while he was growing up....he was a secret punk rock Jehovah's Witness.....he was my best friend....we got married this also made it possible to get me away from my abusive parents....marriage or missionary service were the only acceptable reasons to move from the house of your parents at that time.

My mother is one of a small and mostly unknown group of
Jehovah's Witnesses called the 'Anointed Ones'...she believes she is one of the 144.000 (Revelations) that will come back with Jesus to kick the asses of all who are not Jehovah's Witnesses.......Oh yeah and after the dead are removed ......she will rule with Jesus over the remaining larger number of Jehovah's Witnesses that were spared in the killing spree........leaving the rest of her family......... should they survive..... on earth in the 'Paradise'.......Oh yeah and Armageddon can't start until all of the Anointed ones are collected like.... Poof.... in to the heavens..so for now...She is like...... a living saint and has like.....a cult following.... like groupies......she even has secret little get togethers with some of the rare breed of 'Anointed'......I used to call her 'Head of the "A Team"'........ shit...... this is so Sad!

Both of my parents have above average IQ's and sound brilliant when you hear them talk....but they are crazy as loons...sadly. Intelligence and religion have nothing to do with one another.

Mike was the first to have doubts and started doing a 'secret' investigation almost ten years ago. I caught him doing his investigation ......I freaked....I turned him in to the Elders in my Kingdom Hall (we were taught to spy on each other and consider it a sin to cover over other peoples sins as well as your own).....they put him on trial.....they could not refute any of his arguments....he sent the congregation a letter of disassociation (which results in instant excommunication) and I fell apart. I tried to keep it up on my own with the kids for like....six months. We almost divorced.

He promised not to try to influence me......he kept his word.....I watched him for months and was amazed at his transformation. He seemed so relaxed....gradually more emotionally expressive.....he looked like he was really developing an interest in the world and I saw him open up to others.....all of these things made me stop and think...what the fuck is happening???..... he is becoming a nicer... much cooler version of himself.... I was afraid that without God he was going to want to fuck everything in site....start with heroine.....grow a beard......(.he did grow a beard.......it is mad hot Yo!).. LOL....I am not kidding........So when he was even more loving, and developed compassion for others in their brainwashed states.... I was confused and started to investigate my own nagging doubts.....Had we been brainwashed????

Once I made that jump....I progressed rapidly and left the Jehovah's Witnesses...we lost both sides of our families as well as friends that we had for most of our lives. Our families view us as worse than dead and haven't spoken to us since ...that was eight years ago. I have one brother that left two years after I did. He is also an Atheist.

We went from Religion to Metaphysics...Holy Frak the stories I could tell. My journey in to the 'Magical Land' was horrific....and short lived thankfully. More about that later.

I felt lost....we both started reading....and reading....and reading....and now I am a little more educated and happy and an Atheist.

Michael and I have grown so close through all of this. We are still best friends...LOL...amazing really.

I shudder to think what would have happened if we never woke up.

I have to write some of this stuff down... I have the funniest Jehovah's Witness door to door stories...I will try to blog about some of that shit....should be good for a giggle.

Peace out,

Me